Gotta love breakups.

Yeah. As the title implies, this isn’t exactly related to the main theme of this blog. It’s just a personal post because it’s my blog and I can vent here. So there.

/Begin emo post.

Love sucks. Period.

I’ve been seeing this guy for two years, and I’ve known him longer than that. It wasn’t an easy relationship. His work schedule was so crazy that we usually never got to see each other or even talk to one another. There were times when we’d go for weeks, even months without talking. It was a painful relationship, but I loved him, so I was willing to put up with it. To me, suffering through the long distance relationship was worth it because sometime in the future we would be able to be together, even if we had to wait. That was the decision that I made.

But lately, it happened again. We lost touch with one another. Days turned into weeks, weeks into months. Soon, it had already been four months since we last were able to get together and spend time with each other. And I was going through a very emotional point of my life. I wanted to talk to him so bad, but I couldn’t. There was no one I could turn to, because my friends wouldn’t want to hear about all of my stresses, and my family situation is…unusual, to say the least.

So he made his decision.

Last night, he cut off the relationship. He sent me an email, telling me that I was a great girl and all of this stuff that he never would have told me if we were sitting face-to-face. He said that he couldn’t stand how bad he was hurting me, and that he knew he had to end the relationship because he knew that I was suffering and that he was just making things worse, and that stressed him out and made him feel bad in response. Ugh…Why does it have to happen all at once like this? I loved the man, even if it was true that he didn’t treat me as an ideal boyfriend would. I really loved him. I wanted to wait. And now it’s gone.  All gone.

/End emo post.

Randomness – My New Project

So I was surfing the Internet one day, looking for a scanlation of one of my favorite manga series (A scanlation is a translation of manga scans, by the way… “scan” + “translation” = “scanlation”) and found that there no translations after a certain volume!  *GASP!*  So, this has become my new project.  I’m going to translate six volumes of Japanese goodness into readable English.  It’s all part of my plot to teach myself Japanese.  It’s going to take forever, though…oh well.  I really want to read it, and as a college student, I don’t have the patience or the money to wait for the American releases to come out.  We’ll see how this goes.  I’ll post my progress here periodically, but my scanlations will be available for download on a different website.

Oh, and the manga?  Basara (or Legend of Basara, depending on whether you’re familiar with the manga or the anime series that was cut short.)

New Laptop = Win

Happy Birthday to me!  I finally got something that I’ve wanted for years and years and years…a laptop!  I originally wanted to get a laptop instead of a desktop, but at the time, they weren’t worth the money that you had to pay for them.  I picked up this baby today for about $750 (was supposed to be $600, but with NJ sales tax and the 1-yr warranty…) and I’m loving it so far.  That’s right, no more sitting in an uncomfortable wooden desk chair in front of the desktop and trying to concentrate on whatever I’m supposed to be writing.  This is so much nicer! ^_^

My decision to get one today was actually rather last minute.  I was working on revising my book and was just thinking about how much nicer it would be if I could go outside and work on it instead of sitting in my room for hours.  Plus, who can deny the versatility that laptops offer for a writer?  I wish I had this a few weeks ago, when I took a 5-hour ride up to the Syracuse area to visit family.  But that’s over and done with, and now I’m a happy camper.  Life is good.  Well, occasionally!

Well, time to transfer all of my docs from my desktop to this computer.  Sounds like fun, doesn’t it?